Despair

20 04 2011

For all the wonderful moments you experience with autism, there are exceptions. Back in 2005, I was deteriorating neurologically. I remember having a bunch of sticky notes all over my wall just so I could get through the day at work and not forget to do something. I was falling for no reason. I started to have to walk with a cane. It was at this time, my son’s school district was failing him and the fighting intensified by a factor of 10. Inside my head I was screaming, overwhelmed by what was happening to me, to him, unable to stop it. The more I tried to hold on and not get sucked into the vortex, the worse it got. The only thing I could do was let go and let God. Please once again, I do not mind if you share, but please respect my copyright. This, too, was published in another book of compiled works.

Despair

Drowning in a sea of suffering,
Sucked into a vortex with no vertical end,
Spinning hopelessly out of control,
Screams stifled by the void surrounding me.
Loneliness engulfs me,
Crushing me with its weight.
I let go and flow with it.
Only then do I reach the bottom
Where I’m on top of the water again,
Swimming for shore.

Hilda Clark Bowen
Copyright ©2005 Hilda Clark Bowen





Graced by God

16 04 2011

This is a poem I wrote for my son back in 2005 that was subsequently published within a larger collection. In honor of Autism Awareness Month, I’d like to share this with you all. I do not mind if you circulate the poem, but please honor the copyright.  He was diagnosed in 1997 (at about 16-18 months of age) with the classic form of autism.  He is now 15.

Graced by God, you were given to us,
but like quicksand, you swiftly left
into a silent storm of autism.
Diving in after you, unwilling to surrender you
to this entity that ensnared your soul,
we made contact.

Your eyes, emerald and gray, began to meet ours again,
slowly holding the gaze seconds longer.
Like ants on a mountain, we fight for every inch of ground,
the elements always undermining some of the territory gained.

With streams of overflowing gratitude for every look, every touch,
every sound, every action you accomplish,
feeling blessed for the differences that set you apart,
that make you our very special child,
graced by God and given to us.

Hilda Clark Bowen
Copyright ©2005 Hilda Bowen





American Idol Top 8 — Songs of the Cinema

14 04 2011

When American Idol first started this season, I chalked up the judges not giving constructive criticism as them trying to get comfortable in their new roles. A few weeks in, Jennifer Lopez began giving really great advice to all the contestants. Randy chimed in with the occasional outright criticism about how he didn’t like it, but no real advice on how to make things better. Steven Tyler is jazzed just to be there. That period of constructive criticism did not last very long; now all we see week after week is a love fest. I know there is a discrepancy between what they hear in the audience versus what we hear on the television (and at times Simon would come back and say how something was horrible or better after he listened back to it later), but it cannot be that much. What exactly is in their drinks and why do they keep dubbing out comments (I experienced this on Directv and a friend on Comcast said the exact same place was dubbed out on theirs). The judges need to do their job–judge. It is not pleasant. It is not easy. But Scotty doing an Elvis song last week was excruciatingly painful for me to listen.

Tonight it was “Songs of the Cinema.”

Paul opens for the show with another loud outfit. It does set him apart in the style department, but this is not Project Runway. He chooses “Old Time Rock N Roll” by Bog Seger. He stated that every time he goes out there, he imagines he is doing his encore. I think he needs to dial it back a bit and think about just performing a good show. Paul seems like a happy, upbeat, pleasant individual–the kind of person I like to hang out with. The question is this: Would I spend my very tight budget in this hard economic times on music he makes after Idol? My answer would be no.

Anyone can sing a Miley Cyrus song better than Miley Cyrus. She has a good recording voice, but every time I have seen her perform live, I cringe. Jimmy Lovine tells Lauren that she sang the song “The Climb” from The Hannah Montana Movie better than Miley Cyrus. Again, not hard to do. Lauren has a good voice, but she was all over the place. I had such high hopes for Lauren when I saw her at the audition. This was better than Paul, but still no goosebumps.

If American Idols of days past have learned, never ever sing a song that talks about “leaving”, “goodbye” etc. Stefano wants to take it to the next level with another ballad, this time from Boyz II Men. Singing “End of the Road” might just seal his fate as the person who goes home this week.

I cannot comment about Scotty. I just do not like country music. Scotty has a good voice and people like him despite him sounding exactly the same on every song. I went to get my dinner at this time.

Presenting “Nature Boy” or “In the Air Tonight” to Jimmy Lovine and why-am-I-here Will.i.am, they tell him to go with Phil Collins. Casey sticks to his guns and does “Nature Boy.” While I am partial to the Celine Dion version, I was not sure, at first, if I liked it or not. I listened to the song later without watching him and I enjoyed it a great deal more.

Haley needed to go home weeks ago. From seeing Nigel Lythgoe’s reaction to her a few weeks ago when they panned the camera over to him, I think he is her biggest fan and might explain some of what is going on with her. I feel insulted as a woman the way she acts–slutty. Singing “Call Me” by Blondie from American Gigolo did not help her cause with me one bit. It was a blonde mess. This must be the year of Idol grunting: Casey does it and Haley does it. In order for Haley to win me over, she needs to: 1) get through this week and 2) dress simply and sing without all the gimmicks. Let me hear your natural voice.

Someone found the guts to say what needed to be said: Jimmy Lovine. He told Jacob not to lecture the American people. Jacob appeared to take this to heart. I was worried about Jacob’s choice: “Bridge Over Troubled Water” by Simon and Garfunkel. After Clay Aiken did an amazing job on this song, it was bound to be compared to it. I tried very hard to judge it just on its own merits. If I closed my eyes and just listened to the song, I enjoyed it a great deal.

Closing the show was James Durbin singing Heavy Metal, a Sammy Hagar song that he was doing for Cole from Make-A-Wish. On the guitar was Zakk Wylde from Ozzy Osbourne’s gang. I love James and have him in the top 2 spots on the show. This performance was not his best, but it was a crowd-pleaser. James just loves being a rock star and brings in the whole audience.

My top 3 (in order): Casey, Jacob, James

My bottom 3 (in order): Paul, Stefano and Haley with Haley going home (my wish) but I think this might be the “End of the Road” for Stefano.

Who are yours?





Breaking-In: T’ is Better to Have Loved Than Flossed

13 04 2011
Breaking In on Fox

The cast of "Breaking In" on Fox

Thanks to the Official FOX VIP program, I was treated to yet another preview of “BREAKING IN” scheduled to air on Wednesday, April 13, 2011 at 9:30/8:30 ET/CT after American Idol. Possible minor spoilers are ahead.

Last week we were introduced to Oz (Christian Slater) and his crew from Contra Security: Cameron (Bret Harrison), a young college student caught hacking, who was given the choice of working for Contra Security or going to jail; Josh (Trevor Moore), the “intel” guy, who used to be the golden boy and is jealous of that status now going to Cameron; Melanie (Odette Yustman), the safe cracker, a wild child who has become the objection of Cameron’s affection; and Cash (Alphonso McAuley) who was busted stalking William Shatner as a trekkie and also given a job offer by Oz. Contra Security is the firm you hire to test how well your security system is NOT functioning.

This week, Contra Security is hired by an “old” woman to break into her safe. As with each episode, nothing is as straightforward as it seems and hilarity ensues.

Alyssa Milano (Romantically Challenged, Charmed) guest stars in this week’s episode as Amy, a dentist who Cameron meets at a restaurant. Amy has a secret but the all-knowing, all-seeing Oz is always one step ahead of everybody else.

According to “TV By The Numbers,” the debut of BREAKING IN on April 6, 2011 scored a 3.5 adults 18-49 rating and 9.9 million viewers. It was highest comedy retention after American Idol in more than 4 years, but premieres typically have higher ratings. This week’s episode will be more telling in how well the show will do.

The show is quick-paced and highly entertaining. I encourage you to give it a try. Join us on Twitter during the show for a tweet-up using the hashtag #BreakingIn.

 





Breaking-In on Fox — A Preview

5 04 2011

Because I am part of the Official FOX VIP program, one of the many wonderful perks is getting to see previews of shows (shows already on-air and new shows). Minor spoilers are possibly ahead.

On Wednesday, April 6, 2011 from (9:30-10:00 ET/PT) on Fox, BREAKING-IN starring Christian Slater as Oz, the mysterious owner of Contra Security, a high-tech security firm that people hire to break into their places first and find out where all the dents in that security is. Cameron (Bret Harrison of “V”, “Reaper“) is a young college student who is caught hacking. Oz tells him to join the company or go to jail.

Contra Security does not even necessarily use the highest tech of equipment to do the job–but a lot of creative thinking. Cameron’s first job does not go as planned thanks to Josh (Trevor Moore, “The Whitest Kids U’Know” and “Uncle Morty’s Dub Shack”), who is jealous of the new member of the team. Melanie (Odette Yustman, Brothers & Sisters, Cloverfield) rounds out the team as the safe cracker.

The show takes off from there. I was expecting this show to be a drama and was completely wrong. There is some quick cutting and editing. A heavy dose of comedy is thrown in. Geeks will love the Dragon-Con/Star Wars references. How Cash (Alphonso McAuley, “Love That Girl!” and “Chocolate News”) came to be on the team will delight every fan of science fiction out there. The Colbertnation will love the references to Sky Mall. And I have discovered one more way to possibly raise funds to keep my son, Patrick, in his autism school — selling “nerd pee.”

With Christian Slater at the helm, he has enough moxy and enough charm to make his character believable and to pull this team together. Bret Harrison and Alphonso McAuley have great comedic timing. Trevor Moore reminded me of “Psycho” in the movie “Stripes.” Odette Yustman plays her wild-child character quite well. This is going to be a fun show.

“And BOOM goes the dynamite.”

Breaking In on Fox

The cast of "Breaking In" on Fox

 





Get “Mobbed” on Fox

28 03 2011
"Mobbed" on Fox March 31, 2011

"Mobbed" on Fox March 31, 2011

 
 
 

 
 
 

While most people have seen a flash mob on television or perhaps in the movies, I wonder how many of you have at least seen one in person.  They serve to brighten people’s spirits, to make them smile, to make them sing, and to make them dance. 
 
 
 

 

 
As a member of the OFFICIALFOXVIP program, I receive many privileges, one being previews of new shows on Fox. On Thursday, March 31, after the American Idol’s results show, a new show called “Mobbed” comes to your TV screen. Without spoiling the story, this one centers on Justin and Nikki. Hosted by Howie Mandel, they pull off an elaborate flash mob for this couple who want to share their news/event in a BIG way. Napoleon and Tabitha, two well-known award-winning choreographers, most recently on Fox’s “So You Think You Can Dance” are in charge of getting over 1000 people dancing in unison in very little time.

The only criticism I have is they felt they needed to create some drama, and this drama made someone cry, which I felt was not necessary. They could have still pulled this off with the dramatic flair they did without anyone becoming suspicious.
We need some “feel good” television shows on the air, and this show will raise your spirits and make you want to get up out of your seat and dance.
To my readers out there, have you ever actually performed in a flash mob (singing, dancing or a combination) and if so, what did you think about it? How many of you think you will tune in to see what this “Mobbed” is all about?
 

 

 





American Idol Top 12 — Haley Will Go Home

17 03 2011

Since there are only a few hours left, I’d better get my thoughts up about Wednesday night’s show. The theme was “songs from the year you were born.”

This week I was not cranky. Everyone was having an off night. When the earth shifts on its axis, you can bet that many other things in life are out of harmonious sync with each other.

Naima chose “What’s Love Got to Do with It” from 1984. It started the night off rocky. I assumed she took the criticism last week that she was pitchy but because the song was done so well, they were giving her a pass on the song being out of tune. This did not have a lot of dancing in it, but it, too, was out of tune. I was worried for her until…

Paul McDonald. He was feeling under the weather (so I think voters will be less harsh on him). “I Guess That’s Why They Call It the Blues” from 1984 was horrible. Paul’s father sang better in the interview.

Today happens to be my birthday (March 17), so when I heard that Thia was born in 1995, the same year as I son, I suddenly felt old. She sang a boring rendition of “Colors of the Wind” from Pocahontas that had way too much vibrato. I secretly smiled when JLo brought up the same issue.

Having recently undergone a makeup that debuted at the Paley Center, James Durbin chose “I’ll Be There For You” by Bon Jovi from 1989. It was a little off key, but at that point was the best song of the night. I like this new look for James. For what he lacked in his song he made up with his personality when he invited Steven Tyler to sing Aerosmith with him in the finale.

And then we had Haley who I predict is going home tonight. She chose a Whitney Houston song, “I’m Your Baby Tonight.” During the interview, she said, “I don’t know where I get my talent from.” I was shaking my head in agreement. I don’t know where the talent is either baby. The outfit, too, was horrible. She reminded me of that crazy girl from “The Stand.”

Stefano needs to stop looking up in the air and singing for himself. From 1989, he chose, “If You Don’t Know Me By Now” If I looked away and didn’t look at him singing, I enjoyed the vocals. Now he needs to make a connection to the audience. After I made the comment on Twitter, so did JLo. Can I have her job?

This week was not a good week for Pia Toscano. I believe, in fact, it was her worst Idol performance thus far and I’m a big Pia fan. She chose “Where Do Broken Hearts Go” that sounded like a disco in the background, but she remained trying to sing it like a ballad which made for a very awkward sound. She wasn’t getting up with the tempo. The pantsuit was horrible as well. She’ll be safe though.

When I saw the interview about Scotty doing Elvis impersonations and heard them, I shook my head and said, “This is going to be a disaster.” But he sang a country song instead. I can’t critique him. I don’t know country music.

Karen Rodriguez, also born in 1989, did “Love Will Lead You Back.” It needed to be better than Taylor Dayne’s version and it wasn’t, but it was much better than last week’s. Her outfit was funny. People on Twitter were comparing her to a cross between Uhura and Snooki.

Performing the first Nirvana song, Teen Spirit, from 1991, Casey was the only performer this evening who played with a musical instrument. It was for the most part wonderful, but even Casey was off. He needed to be a bit more serious when singing it though; I felt like he was doing something for some Halloween show where he was just goofing off. Wonderful talent though and he will be safe for next week.

Lauren Alaina has the flu and I can already tell you that will keep her safe this week. She decided to switch back to a little bit rock-and-roll and I liked the Melissa Etheridge song, “I’m The Only One.” Even with the flu, she sounded better than some of these contestants tonight.

Jacob Lusk (a.k.a. “Lusky”). He is another contestant that when I close my eyes and do not look, I like his singing a lot better. He did the most overused song in Idol history: Heart’s “Alone.” He, too, did well for the most part, but there were a few sharp notes in there but he did recover well.

My prediction is: Haley will go home.





What Including Kids Has Done for My Son

13 03 2011

This is a copy of a testimonial I wrote in December 2010 for Including Kids, Inc. for them to use in their fundraising efforts. There are several fundraisers coming up for them including “Rock Autism” and their Boots & Bling Gala. For those considering attendance at either, I want to share our journey and how special this place is.

Patrick was diagnosed in 1997 at 18 months of age, when autism was occurring in 1 in 10,000 children. From Jan 1999-May 2004, our school district did a great job educating him, even introducing applied behavior analysis (ABA) to him in 2001 at which time he made significant achievement in growth and learning. A decision by one administrator in May of 2004 changed all that. By 2006, Patrick lost, by their testing, 81% of all the skills he ever learned. For the first time ever, Patrick started having serious behavior issues. Once all his skills to communicate were gone, he had no other way but to express communication other than in self-injurious behaviors. All the money and time that we had invested in Patrick privately to pay for speech therapy, a home program, and training for the school staff became a significant loss. But these losses would never match the grief of seeing our child go from a happy, loving, gentle soul to a child angry, frustrated, and hurting himself so badly that it looked like he had been abused. The stress of fighting with the school district to have them provide, at minimum, what the law says they should, had taken a significant toll on our family life and health. When the incompetence hit an all-time low and unethical behavior reared its ugly head, the only choice to protect him was to withdraw him. We knew when we offered to pay for proper training and oversight for his program and they declined, it was more about their infighting with us than it was about Patrick.

We called Including Kids, Inc. to see if they could help provide in-home consultation for our potential homeschooling when we learned about their new program, SOAR Academy. When we met with staff and were asked if we thought Patrick was a good fit for the program, we honestly did not know. Autism had taken a huge financial toll already, so we did not know how we were going to pay for this. However, somewhere in our souls, we knew this was the right choice. We took a step off a cliff not knowing if there was going to be a safety net to catch us on our fall. All we had was our faith that somehow everything would be okay.

Phrases we often heard were “given his intellectual deficits, how much do you think he can learn?” “Don’t you think 10 signs in 1 school year might be too much for him to learn?” In the first 9 days at InKids, he was already signing 3 to 4-word sentences and had learned 3 new signs. Every day I took the long drive home, I cried tears of joy because he was finally with people who saw his limitless potential. The sheer number of accomplishments from his August to December 2010 tenure at InKids would fill several pages. After one month, he tolerated his first rock concert, just one of the many firsts. He cares about things now and wants to make choices. He is shaking his head yes and no in response to questions appropriately. Clothes are being put on with just supervision. Two events stand out in my memory during this time period. A chip went down his throat the wrong way and his eyes started to water. I asked him, “What’s wrong?” He signed, “Help me” and then put his hands around his neck. It has been one of our greatest fears that Patrick’s life span would be cut short because he could not tell anybody what was hurting him. In 11 years, neither we nor the school district could teach him this concept. Yet, here in this magical place, they did it in 4 short months. Another beautiful moment occurred when I was sitting on the bed. I asked him to sit next to me. He did, then turned to me, tapped his fingers on my chest and said (verbally), “Mom.” A single-word symphony I will forever cherish. New talents have emerged such as planting things and cooking.

Patrick has moved from the darkness into the light again. He shows pride in his accomplishments. His sense of humor has returned with a vengeance. We often get notes home that tell us he just would not stop laughing all day long.

It is now obvious to us that since the school district did not believe he was capable of anything, he had no reason to prove anything otherwise to anyone. Even our efforts in our home program were failing because Patrick had no self-esteem. It was one more thing that was taken from him because of that one decision by one individual to close the district’s successful autism program. Now we see the smiling, happy child that he was prior to August of 2004 again. The stress in our home life has been greatly reduced which no doubt has benefitted Patrick as well.

In August of 2010, we were not sure at all if SOAR Academy was the right fit for Patrick. Now, we cannot imagine our son being anywhere else. We are Including Kids Lifers. Each and every one of these people at Including Kids embody what it means to be a true teacher, not merely an educator. Their dedication to the children and to their families does not stop at the classroom. Because the approach is so intensive, this kind of support for children with autism is costly. There are children on a waiting list who desperately need this school’s assistance. Please help Including Kids, Inc. continue to operate and grow so they can create a pathway for as many children as possible towards a life of not only working and personal independence, but also a life full of the same love and happiness and pleasures that you enjoy. On behalf of our family, we thank you for your consideration.



 

Patrick

My life teacher, Patrick.





American Idol Top 13

10 03 2011

American Idol Top 13

After having a medical procedure on Wednesday, I was tired and crabby. I maybe should not have watched American Idol tonight because I was critical of EVERYONE.

Tonight’s our Top 13 had to sing songs that were from their own personal idols’ collections. My personal idol is my son, so he would probably make me sing something like Hymn 43 by Jethro Tull. That is, by far, his favorite song, but his face lights up when I sing Katy Perry’s “Firework” (without any air-microphones or pretend microphones) and dance around him like I was giving him his own personal concert. Since he is nonverbal, I’m going to assume that he likes it versus him thinking his mother is off her rocker.

Lauren Alaina was up first singing Any Man of Mine by Shania Twain. I wished she would have stayed a little bit rock-and-roll versus a little bit country. Every season needs a girl rocker. Since I dislike most country music, she gets demerits for that alone. Not knowing the song, it is hard to judge it, but I thought it was average.

I like Casey Abrams. He reminds me a little bit of David Cook with the goofiness. I wonder what he would look like without the beard. He tries to do “I Get By With A Little Help From My Friends” from Joe Cocker. I was not feeling it (it was only later in the evening that I figured out it might be me and not them).

Ashthon Jones needed to redeem herself for getting a place in the Top 13. It was sharp and out of tune quite a lot. There was no wow factor. I think she will be going home tonight.

Paul McDonald brings a unique voice to the group, but he vocally sounds like a young Rod Stewart and moves like Joe Cocker. I just don’t know what to make of that. He sang a Ryan Adams song, “Come Pick Me Up” that I was not familiar with either. I imagine he is safe though.

One does not pick a Celine Dion song without slaying it. Actually Pia Toscano picked an Eric Carmen song that was reinterpreted by Celine Dion. There was a part in the middle when she had to get that high note that she used all her breath control to get to the high not, but then could not sustain it. I liked it, however. It took moxey.

I ruminated last night about why I’m so hard on James Durbin. He sang a great rendition of “Baby I’m Amazed” by Paul McCartney. There are arguments going on within the autism community itself about whether or not he even HAS autism (not making a judgment here; just letting you know some people think he just suffers from Tourette’s). I want him to be better because I do not want people voting for him “because he’s the guy with autism.” I want them to vote for him because they like him and they like his singing.

Haley Reinhart decided to go a little bit country herself with “Blue” from Leann Rimes. The yodeling part was impressive. I was worried she was going to have a wardrobe malfunction because when they panned the camera to her back side there was a huge gap between the dress and her skin in the bra area.

Jacob Lusk needs new role models. Seriously, dude, R. Kelly? A pedophile as a role model is not going to get you votes. “I Believe I Can Fly” was the song but he was flying all over the place with that song. He was out of key most of the song. But when you are doing runs like that, some people cannot tell the difference between something in-tune and something that is over the top.

Having had an outstanding performance last week with “Out Here on My Own” I was looking for another song to set her apart from the group. “Smile” is a hard song to sing. You need either great acting skills or life experience. At Thia Meglia’s tender age, I’d have to say iffy on both. Backstage, even she knows she might be in trouble. She might be in the bottom, but Ashthon will go home.

I always find it funny when mentors point out the “don’t close your eyes” when you sing. We believe, as singers, when we close our eyes, it is emanating deep emotion. It was the same criticism Sir Andrew Lloyd Webber gave to David Archuleta a few seasons ago. Just like with David, you could see Stefano Langone fighting back closing his eyes to the entire song of “Lately” by Stevie Wonder. He wound up squinting. It looked weird.

Karen Rodriguez did not do herself any favors singing Selena’s I Could Fall In Love. She had a very difficult time in her lower register. But when she was in a good register, her voice sounded pretty. No one was making my night tonight.

Scotty McCreedy looks like he could share some ancestral tree with Clay Aiken. And Just like with Clay I never expect the voice that comes out of him to come out of him. I’m sure country music fans love him and his music. Singing Garth Brooks “The River”, for me he was just floating on an inner tube on that river as I waved to him from shore.

I was excited to hear what Naima Adedapo was going to come up with. As is tradition, the last song of the night is usually reserved for the best performance. Having barely made it into the Top 13, she had to make this night count. She was out of tune quite a lot during “Umbrella” but I liked the rapped part in the middle and it showed a different side of her. Goodbye lounge singer. Hello to someone who is more contemporary.

For me, no one stood out Wednesday night. I have not gotten goosebumps yet. I am looking forward to seeing Adam Lambert on Thursday night’s show. I predict the person going home will be Ashthon.

Who were your stand-out performances? Who missed the mark? Who failed to impress? Discuss.





Nichelle Nichols Q&A Women of SciFi Convention January 29, 2011, Part 1

16 02 2011

Robert Wilonsky with the Dallas Observer is moderating.

[The crowd is chanting: U-HUR-A, U-HUR-A. There was a large amount of clapping with the standing ovation.]

 

NichelleNichols

The awesome Nichelle Nichols. By far, her Q&A was the best.

 

 

RW: I can’t believe that was all for me. (crowd laughs). Awfully kind. There is a microphone set up in the center. I have some questions. But, just. Not yet. Just wait. Let me ask a couple. If you would like to ask a question, feel free to line up at this very moment. We will get to you. We have about 45 minutes and let’s take some questions. But I would like to begin with one. And thank you for being here by the way.

NN: It is my pleasure. My pleasure.

RW: Now William Shatner and Leonard Nimoy have inflicted upon this world some of THE worst music ever made.

Ms. Nichols and the crowd laugh a great deal.

NN: I didn’t say that.

RW: No, I did. [Pointing to the audience]: They did. You on the other hand have an extraordinary voice, performed with Duke Ellington and Lionel Hampton’s bands, released an extraordinary album in 1967 called, “Go Down to Earth.” Only released one album after that. Why? Why not more records from you?

NN: I actually have done a couple of others, but I got sidetracked from my career doing something from outer space. Star Trek interrupted my career.

(Crowd laughs).

NN: And I don’t regret it. The career that I intended, that I felt that I was supposed to do became so much more, and I am really, really glad.

RW: Haven’t you never find time, though, to go back to the studio. Star Trek became a career, working for NASA, working with NASA as a recruiter then and now, became part of a career. You could have found time to get back into the studio. It didn’t stop Shatner.

(Crowd laughs).

RW: Unfortunately.

NN: NOTHING stopped Shatner.

(Crowd laughs)

RW: That may be true. Good God they are already lined up [looking at the microphone line]. Music is still a very big part of your life. In fact, you were serenading a young girl to her today. You were singing a little bit in the green room. You have an extraordinary voice. Do you ever intend to get back to it?

 

Uhura Singing

Uhura Singing

 

 

NN: I never left it. When I’m not working, I have a one-woman show called “Reflections” in which I actually become 12 legendary black women entertainer stars.

RW: Sarah Vaughn, Ella Fitzgerald…

NN: Lena Horne, Eartha Kitt, Pearl Bailey, Mahalia Jackson–just to name a few. I have this quirky voice and I found an incredible voice master at some point, and I was looking for a coach to take me through some areas of music that I wanted to smooth out. He said, “I’m not a coach; I’m a voice builder.” And I said, “Okay.” He was an Italian man named Giuseppe ______, and he was the “little monster.’ He was 4 feet 8 inches. He was gargantuously tall. That was it. I, to his face, called him Little Mussolini. And he said, “Thank you.” Because he demanded of you your best. And you could only work from how he taught it. He taught “bel canto” which “made beautiful voice” and the exercises sound like nothing like singing exercises. As a matter of fact, I think anybody who has ever studied “bel canto” will ever show you what the exercises are because they are vocal exercises that really grab hold to your body, your voice and turns it into something that you can do anything you want to it. There are some very famous people who have studied “bel canto.” I think there were only 4 teachers in the United States. So I told him, “Well if you could help me, this is what…because, you know, I have these two voices and when I sing….” He said, “Wait a minute, wait a minute, what? I said, “Well the two voices that I have.” He said: WAIT….A…MINUTE: What do you mean you have two voices? What do you mean?” He said, “Show me.” I said, “Well, you know I have this high soprano voice, and then I have this other that I sing regular music in.” And he said, “And you call that two voices?” I said, “Well yes, a lot of people have two voices.” And he started laughing at me. So he laughed at me so hard that he fell off the piano stool. He started off saying, “I’m not taking any new people.” And I told the person that had told me about him, “Tell him to tell that to my face.” He said, “Fine, put him on.” He says, “I’ll tell her to her face; I’m not taking anyone else.” Next thing he was, “Well when we work, you will have one voice.” And so I sang to him. He said, “Let me see the two-piece/two voices.” So I sang, like:

[Begins singing]

NN: And then I sang for him my other voice, my soprano voice, [sings a song in her higher range].

(Applause).

NN: And he said, “So?” I said, “When I get to a certain place it stops and then I have to go to the other one. He says, “No everyone doesn’t.” And when he got through with me, I’ve got one voice, so I can take it anywhere I want it to go. At that time, it was about a 4-1/2 octave range, and I think over the years I have about a 3 to 3-1/2 octave range depending upon how I feel that day.

RW: Getting you to sing was my entire goal in coming here.

(Laughter and applause).

RW: I have many questions, and I know you guys do. So we are going to turn the course of this. I’ll ask some, then you guys will ask some, so please. You have been waiting there, go ahead.

To be continued in Part 2